I’ve been born-again/saved fifteen years now and didn’t know how it happen until about four or five years later. Things began to develop and occur to me that I’d no previous familiarity, nor had interest, but I didn’t fight it, I just went with the flow; now, since then I’ve changed, no — I’ve changed a lot, and it wasn’t my doing.
My eyes see differently. My heart I’ve discovered speaks to my mind — but not with bundles of emotion, but with revelation coming from within. My thought about that — peculiar.
Daily I recognize I’m in a world I no longer relate to, or am I part of – my whole persona is kind of alien to this world of today. Once upon a time yes, I was very much into the world we live, but not anymore — weird. What’s happening I confessed.
A new reality is reshaping my total being — fascinating.
The way I once participated in the world is no more, and I don’t miss it. I do many of the same things, but with different meaning — why?
I enjoy what I’ve always enjoyed — better; but for some reason avoid those things I once thought had value and was part of me by putting them into another perspective, and like I said, I’m not missing a thing. What’s going on? Why am I doing this and why am I feeling like this, and like it … (John 17:14).
(John 17:14) says, I have given them Your Word, [received Christ] and the world has hated them, [has, and shows no love because there’s none in it]. For they are not of the world, [being born-again/saved], just as I am not of the world, [being born-again/saved].
So, there it is, it’s the Holy Spirit cleaning my house that I’m feeling.
Everything in this world has been tainted and is no longer original. Too, it is a poor replica of what it should have or was supposed to have been. I see this so clearly now, not seeing with my eyes but through them. So how does this affect me?
It had little if no effect at first because I grew with it, but I’ve been born-again/saved, a new creature in Christ; a new being, (2nd Corinthians 5:17), it reads: Therefore, if any man be in Christ, he’s a new creature, old things are passed away and all things are become new. … So, now through revelation I enjoy life God’s way. I do everything I used to do but with adjustments. The battle is with my old ways and thoughts — residue is a good word, that’s still part of this tainted world challenging my adjustments, (Romans 7:23).
This is a constant battle and the passages in God’s Word saying, keep His Word in front of your eyes day and night takes on a huge role, (Deuteronomy 11:18,19), (Proverbs 4:21,22), challenging me left and right — tempting may well be fitting I think.
To not be strong in faith, I’ll crash and burn losing the fight that’s raging furiously inside of me, wanting me to dip and dab with the reminders of how it once was and could be again – lies of course. … But with faith, it ain’t so hard — is it Jesus? Still, “There’s a battle going on.”
Gaidi
Word of note: (Romans 7:13-25) reveals the battle which was going on that even the Apostle Paul was having.
