I’ve been born again/saved fifteen years now and didn’t know how it happen until about four or five years later. Things began to develop and occur to me that I had no previous familiarity nor had any interest, but I didn’t fight it, I just went with the flow and since then I’ve changed, no I’ve changed a lot, and it wasn’t my doing.
My eyes see differently. My heart I’ve discovered speaks to my mind but not with bundles of emotion, but with revelation from within — peculiar. Daily I recognize I’m in a world I’m no longer part of – kind of alien. Once upon a time yes, I was very much of the world we live, but not anymore — weird stuff so far huh; but it’s in the Bible, (John 17:16).
A new reality is shaping my total being — fascinating. The way I’ve once participated in the world is no more, and I don’t miss it. I do many of the same things, but with different meaning. I enjoy what I’ve always enjoyed — better, but for some reason avoid those things I once thought had value and was part of me by putting them into another perspective; enjoyed the right way, and like I said, I’m not missing a thing.
Everything in this world effecting life has been tainted and is no longer original. Too, let it be known, is a poor replica of what it should have, or was supposed to have been. I see this so clearly now, not seeing with my eyes but through them, and please don’t let me get started on the subject of products. So how does this affect me?
It had little if no effect at all on the old me because I grew with it, but I’ve been born again/saved, a new creature in Christ; a new being, (2nd Corinthians 5:17). So now I enjoy life God’s way. I do everything I used to do but with adjustments. The battle is with my old ways and thoughts — residue is a good word, that’s still part of this tainted world challenging my adjustments. This is a constant battle and the passages in God’s Word saying keep His Word in front of your eyes day and night takes on a huge role, (Deuteronomy 11:18,19), (Proverbs 4:21,22), challenging me left and right — tempting is a good word. To not be strong in faith, I’ll crash and burn losing the fight that’s raging furious inside of me, wanting me to dip and dab with reminders of how it once was and could be again – lies, but with faith, it ain’t so hard. Still, “There’s a battle going on.”
Gaidi
