After years of being saved, fourteen (14) as a matter of fact, and with the changes in my life because of it, I’m grateful. I was on the road to nowhere shooting at nothing and hitting it every time. My views, position and philosophy of everything was so different. I’m able to say this because I’m living with new approaches and changes because I’m new, and folks, better. My purpose is better, my principles are better, and my mental state is better so says me, and as a result I must beware. Prayer, meditation, spiritual consciousness, Kingdom living as explained in the Holy Bible, and faith has become the more dominant force ruling over me, or is it?
Yesterday my confessions were; I make my bed and sleep in it, call my own shots win or lose, and comfortable with those choices because they help me be me. I didn’t let anyone or anything define me, so I thought. Now I try my best to stand firm on God’s Word, and that’s where I go wrong, by ME trying MY best.
To say I’ll try my best is to say I’m still in control calling the shots but leaving room for God if I error. That’s not faith it’s my freewill, independence; control, and that’s not so in God’s Plan for anybody. God’s Plan for you, me, him, and her, is fixed, already done. Those freewill traits so I thought were honest and true but exposed and defined where my heart was and it surely wasn’t with God so who was I fooling? Me!
It’s my freewill that’ll have me think God’s okay with how I’m handling things now that I’m saved and have changed a lot. It’s my freewill that’ll play religion before I can bat an eye. It’s my freewill to search for my comfort zone for control feeling good about myself. Like in (Luke 18:11) the Pharisee sizing up a man saying, at least I ain’t like that; I dare him. Question, but did you see yourself? Again, that’s not faith, its pride and self-righteousness. Pride controls and uses freewill as an accomplice, but faith relinquishes control so God can use you because without faith you can’t please God, God can’t use you because you’re not useable. (Hebrews 11:6). You use freewill to help yourself. Don’t get me wrong, freewill has its place or God wouldn’t have given it to us, and we wouldn’t be made complete in His image and likeness, (Genesis 1:26, 27), nullifying us as Man. It’s Man and Man only who’ve been given this trait.
There’s an old song titled “There’s a thin line between love and hate”, and so is there too between freewill and faith. Funny how we identify with the song or it wouldn’t have become a hit, but don’t identify with the lyric of the Holy Bible where faith is the measure. Your popularity drops free styling Bible verses. Jesus said in (Matthew 16:30), we see and interpret the signs of weather but ignore the interpretations of the signs of the time.
If you’re in search to exalt yourself wrapped up and disguised in religion, acting above and entertaining too high an opinion of yourself boasting assuming self-righteousness and abusing what you have in spirit and material gain (Matthew23:12), that’s freewill not faith. In other words, do you use freewill to stand on God’s Word or does faith in God’s Word govern your freewill; one you control the other you relinquish for the greater power.
We’ve got to understand the difference between our will, and faith in God’s or we’re defeated; so is Satan by the way.
Gaidi
